Saturday, August 29, 2009

PHOTO HUNTERS – SURPRISE

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This week’s theme is SURPRISE.
Let’s hope time will eventually heal Daddy’s
broken heart since Joey’s death last week.
The news caught everyone one of us in SURPRISE
as she was such a healthy and loving sister.

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Note:
Jeremy did not injure himself but created a hole on the already brittle awning.
The fallen pieces shook me as though a meteor had fallen into my house.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME AND VISIT!
HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!



Sunday, August 23, 2009

I WISHED THE SCAR WON’T GO AWAY

I have been hallucinating for the past 3 days… Each time I tried to get some shut eyes, I kept hearing the calls of Joey. Was it the getting use to her calls each morning got stuck in my memory? I’m not too sure as those calls were so crystal clear and it happened right in front of my bedroom many times. Each time I jumped up of my bed and rushed to the door, there were not a single soul in sight. It was weird. It was eerie. Moreover, Joey passed away on the 1st day of the 7th month in the Chinese Lunar Calendar which was the start of the month where the Chinese believed was the opening of the Heaven and Hell’s door for the deceased to visit the living for the whole month. Err…

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I’m still trying to keep myself intact here without thinking too much and it was not easy. I had mood swings very often, so did Jimmy. He still could not get over the demise of his sister. All day long he would just sit next to where her sister was looking really miserable and not wanting to eat much. I can understand his behavior as I had also lost my appetite and moods in doing just anything. It felt like the whole world crumbled apart, squashing us to the ground, not letting us having any thoughts at all in the already solemn atmosphere.




Losing someone close is sad but losing someone that you had helped to come into the world with your bare hands and taking her as if she was your own blood was devastating. I hope I can get over it soon. It has been quite awhile since I had written a long post but I had to do it now to keep my mind occupied to avoid becoming more depress. The next thing I had to do is to keep watchful eyes over Jimmy. It was only 4 days and he has lost a lot of weight. He was not even interested in his favorite KFC. Neither was he taking a lot of fluid. If this goes on, I might need to take him for a check up first thing Monday morning. No matter what, I think I have to take him there too as ever since the day Joey left us, he has been furiously trying to get himself hurt by scratching his head and clawing on hard cement until he bled. Something is surely not really right here. I had given up on all possible explanation to his weird change of behavior. The only thing left for me to do is to make sure nothing serious would happen in this family again.

Could it be due to the twin connection? Some said it was a myth but to me it really exists. While feeding Joey her food and medication few hours before she was gone, she gave me a deep scratch below my left thumb. Barely an hour later, Jimmy scratched me for no reason 5” apart. Was it a coincident? I guessed not as that was not how Jimmy had behaved before. Weird! Many people would want that hurtful scar to vanish as quickly as possible but I want it to remain there forever. It was the last connection I had with Joey and it was the last scratch I had from her. I do not want it to disappear… sob~ sob~ I wished I can hug my baby again… now…

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Thursday, August 20, 2009

RIPPLES IN MY HEART

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I hoped, I prayed and I tried my very best…
But you left with my most fearful enemy
none can avoid… DEATH!
Bringing you into the world with my bare hands
left many smiles and joy in my life…
Your every little moves and actions
made my life more meaningful…
Now what would happen to my faithful
alarm clock when you are no longer here?
Even your twin was not in best performance
ever since you left…
Twin connections… it’s not a myth!
My sea of calm and tranquil water
is now filled with ripples…
Ripples from the endless drops of tears…
and they never seem to be able to stop…
Each drop represents the love I had for you…
It’s for eternity…

R.I.P.P.L.E.S.
Rest In Peace… Pretty Lady… Eternally… Sorrowlessly…


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JOEY L.
22 June 2008 – 20 August 2009

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS CARING MY BABY

This would be my fourth continuous night caring for my baby Joey. She has been under lots of depression after been diagnosed with many liver related complications. If I had not accidentally spotted the orange urine she gave out a few days back, she would have been in a worst condition. Panting furiously, loss of appetite, vomiting, lethargy, noticeable weight loss, inability to lie down, epilepsy and lack of energy to move about were some of the things I had noticed. I’m getting real panicky here. I pray that everything would be back to normal soon although I was informed that I had to keep my fingers crossed to see results in weeks. Syringe feeding her every few hours has been real stressful and it’s tiring me out. I love my baby a lot… please hold on baby… it’s not your time yet… please stay strong… Daddy would always be right by your side… Sob~

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The heavy panting sound has even scared me further… Please pray hard for us…




Saturday, August 15, 2009

PHOTO HUNTERS – ARTIFICIAL

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This week’s theme is ARTIFICIAL.
We have often come across many things in our life,
physically, materialistically or emotionally related
which could be real ARTIFICIAL
Sometimes, it hurts to find out the reality…
Sometimes, it would give some mystical suspense…
Sometimes, it would take time to mend our hearts…
But… it’s part and parcel of our life journey
to grow up to be stronger to face the world…
Let’s look at how Jeremy would look at it instead…

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HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!



Saturday, August 8, 2009

PHOTO HUNTERS – LOW

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This week’s theme is LOW.
There are so many definitions for the word “LOW
and I think I practically covered some of them here.
In this house, there's never a LOW supply of food
to feed the growing “kids”.
You would see what I meant down here…
when hunger strikes!!!

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